In 1996, like many others, I purchased a copy of The Simple Abundance Journal of Gratitudeby Sarah Ban Breathnach, after seeing her on The Oprah show.
I had great intentions, but when I opened the book, I found myself confronted…whatshould I write? If I didn’t write; my husband, children, family & friends, what would that mean? What if they read my journal and it said chocolate, or the dogs and it hurt their feelings? I remember having a conversation with a friend and she LOVED her journal. I asked her,
“How do you not write the same thing every day?”
She looked at me funny, she didn’t understand,
“You can write anything.”
It seems absurd now…doesn’t it?
In reality, it is a SAD reminder of how I was feeling at the time…confronted, judged, worried, not enough…I was trapped, living behind a cardboard cutout, afraid no one would love the real me.
I have done a lot of soul care work since then and discovered what was keeping me from gratitude was the lies I believed, the labels I carried, and the expectations I had for myself or I thought others had of me. Noticing that and letting them go one-by-one has made all the difference.
If you recognize yourself in any of the statements above and want to learn more about letting go, finding your truth, and living an authentic life, join me November 18thfor Let it go. Let it Fall. Let it be. or to dive deeper, start your year with Soul Restoration: The Barn Series.